Mommy's first day of Kindergarten

I didn't really think that dropping my daughter off for her first day of Homeschool Community Day Kindergarten would be that big of a deal for me. I mean, it's only one day a week and just four hours. That's almost like dropping her off for a play date. It shouldn't be that different right?

Turns out I'm one of those moms who would drive down the street to park and cry after the famed first drop off. Had I dropped her off all by my lonesome I probably would have done just that.  However, my husband came with us for the big day and I would have felt silly sniffling in the passenger seat so I pulled myself together.

It did make me think about my mommy feelings though. Of course there's the usual bittersweetness of seeing your child move on to the next stage of life. Wasn't she just born? How did these past five years go so quickly?! Sometimes I think growing up is harder to do for mommy than child.

I also realized that it feels strange to leave her someplace where I'm not in control. I'm a bit of a control freak. Control freaks don't really like to let go. Even for four hours.

The day is and enrichment day which means they'll be doing all the fun stuff like music and art. It made me a little sad to realize that I won't get to be there to see her do the fun stuff. Obviously we'll still do fun stuff at home but not the really cool fun stuff they'll do in school. Yeah, that's probably just  more of the control freak coming out.

It's good though. My first little course in learning to push her out of the nest. She'll be 35 before we know it and asking to date so I need to get ready.